Changes

                               This should be a fun post. 

So am looking through my pics and i see a picture of me with my hair permed, i take a closer look at the pic and i laugh out loud.  heyy  allow me ahhh.












<----This is a pic of me with perm and yes it was this long and
                                                                                                                     > --------this is a pic of me with natural hair, in fact i locked it but it wasn't permanent

Let me keep you up to date, as at now i have natural hair and how did i decide to go natural? I braided my hair and it looked like dread locks and a very close friend of mine told me ill look good with natural hair so out of excitement i decided to try and DAMN IT HASN'T BEEN EASY. It hurts like hell when I go to braid, twist or put on a weave. I have kinky hair and its very hard, I was thinking of an easier way to keep my hair and oh yes ave considered dread lock (permanent), they are very nice when i see other people do it  but i don't like the fact that i have to cut more than half of my hair away.


Hairdressers are the ones i hate most because they seem to hate me also because i have natural hair, and oh yes ave thought of perming my hair again but i don't like the idea because i eat a lot (yes i admit it) but keeping chemicals away from my hair is one hard decision, i cry most times at the salon but i know good things don't come easy. so i have my natural hair on and if i really get tired, then maybe i might lock it permanently anaa???

I can say I AM GLAD

 As at now,am exactly where I think I want to be. Am actually happy and i haven't been happy for a while. All is well with my family and my friends are fine( oh sorry, I just have two people I can talk to now so those are who I consider my friends)

 It hasn't been easy at all, boy troubles, family trouble and all, but i pulled through.People think am emotionless but its not so, I care for a few people so therefore only these people can get to me. I have learnt to control my emotions and not let my emotions control me. I know am sounding all confident at this moment but the truth is I am confident (more than I have ever been), there are a couple of people I care about but they wont accept me just the way I am so  i have kept them at bay and watching them from afar.When they are ready to accept me as I am they will let me in.Ill wait as long as I can but you know "nothing lasts forever"

Afi is an angel sent in human form to  be my earpiece, she listens to all my crap and "wahala" , God sends people into our lives for different reasons but am glad Afi came to stay. I can talk to her without feeling like am being judged or looked down upon.She knows me inside out and so do I know her. We talk about our future together as if we are a couple, I cant seem to tell her how much I love her,

they say not All that glitters is gold. my life was a mess and with help from people who care and wont ever let me go no matter what, have helped straighten my life out. Ave learned to stand up for myself. I don't know if you will ever read this but if you do NYS I owe you my life and all that I am now, you never gave up on me no matter what happened  you are a true friend and am proud to say AFI and NYS thanks for having my back all this while.

Someone once said on twitter " the less friends you have, the smaller your circle and the less bullsh*t" if you really know me in person you know am not anti-social but now am learning to be reserved because it looks like that will help me more..........................Life is too short to make a mess out of yourself,with honesty and hard-work you will go places.


Till my next post........................ maakumi over and out.